taking a dive

not feeling so well emotionally these days. on top of all the stress, i have to deal with a theft problem at the boarding house, and as expected, they're trying to turn the tables on me. as if i have to prove that the things i lost are really mine. even threatening to file a case against ME. God knows how much i've lost to the thief starting this year. but then in situations like these, you can really expect to be harassed because that's all the power that the other side has. the truth will not change.

right now i only have my faith that God holds everything in his hands, and will work everything out according to his purpose. even if i don't achieve what i hoped to achieve through our discussions, sooner or later, the truth will come out and i will get justice. sigh.

i just ask you all to pray for me in these very trying times. i feel so alone in this struggle. i can only imagine what those other people who still experience injustice feel, especially when it involves murder of their loved ones. how frustrating it must be to know who did it and helplessly have to sit through each court hearing because they need "proof beyond reasonable doubt". and human beings can always invent and twist stuff just to back up their claims, sometimes even accusing you of lying just to save themselves.

this started last friday. at least i had a respite from all this last sunday, when i went diving at nalusuan and gilutungan off mactan with my officemates. the current was strong, visibility wasn't that good, but i had fun. it was relaxing. and i finally saw some sting rays =) thank you, Lord, for that.

incidentally, this is also about the same time i got robbed at knifepoint last year as i was walking to the office. now that was also stressful, but at least everyone was on my side.

i just have to bear each burden a day at a time. i wonder why my life seems to take on more and more dramatic turns. i thought it would get simpler as i got older and wiser.

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  1. Alistair IsraelOctober 19, 2004 at 3:47 AM

    "i just have to bear each burden a day at a time. i wonder why my life seems to take on more and more dramatic turns. i thought it would get simpler as i got older and wiser"

    Who ever said our lives get simpler as we grow older? Sometimes, we fail to even grow wiser as we grow older.

    God knows you're not guilty, and who the real thief is. We just have to believe that each one of us will get we all deserve in the end.

    Live life day by day - just remember you don't have to carry your burdens alone. There's Him, and there's your family, and then there's your friends. :)

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  2. sunny castilloNovember 7, 2004 at 5:39 AM

    the mystery of human suffering, trials and tribulation continues to be elusive to our human reason. Trust that God sees you through it all. Prayers to you, Jeneen! I myself am baffled about the difficulties of being a responsible adult. Let us give God his place, and make Him take care of it, when we can't. (Tha's a stament of faith, not a stament of utility.)

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